weight

damn it! not i am freaking out about the possibility of gaining weight because of the zoloft. awwww i hate this so much! i know i need to gain some weight but i don't want to start balooning, especially since i don't really have time to exercise very much. and i don't want to start freaking out about my body image if i gain. dave mentioned that welbutrin is supposed to cause weight loss and instantly my brain said, "well you should be taking that instead!" and i told dave that i had a journal which i probably shouldn't have done because he asked to read it and i had to tall him no. i want him to read it but i don't want to be selfconcious about what i put in here. this is mine. my brain. someday i will let him read it. but not until i am through with it. and only maybe. the only things in here that i don't want him to read are the things about other boys and my goopy ramblings about him. the rest i tell him anyway.